I’m from a little village in the countryside. And even I have travelled a lot, moved from a place to place, lived in many big cities, been crazy-partying like no tomorrow, gone through tons of festivals around the globe, have had a life far from a quiet one, I anyway always feel the best when I am surrounded by nature. I have a deep need in me for daily forest walks, for listening to the quietness of nature, for smelling the fresh clean air.. That’s what keeps me grounded.
Nature has always been my closest friend. We have been growing together, loving together, crying together, hating together, creating together, and being amazed together, over and over again. Nature is a huge part of who I am.
I’m so grateful that our family have found this beautiful place to live at. This is our first home together. No matter where we go next one day, this will always remain a very meaningful place for us. The place where we became a family. When life got a meaning.
These summer weekends are so beautiful. I have been walking in the woods with our dog, picking up some wild herbs for my cosmetic and medical products which I will make later.
I have also been working in our garden. We have a lot of vegetables and herbs growing. It’s so exciting and relaxing to do our own gardening.
For most of my life, I have kept these kinds of things for granted. I have always had access to my own garden and its clean and healthy products. Until latest years. Nowadays I might catch myself in scary thoughts. Cause even I can here locally live my life healthy and clean, I know it’s not a worldwide privilege for everyone, and the area of this planet where this beautiful way of living is still possible is getting smaller and smaller.
I have a clear vision of what natural means -to me. What real means -to me. What safe means -to me. And what is right and wrong -in my opinion.
Here where we live I can live true to my values. But I know in the big picture my thoughts are naive, my trust is naive. It’s almost like my morality is outdated in today’s world.
I’m not the only one, I know for my relief that there are a lot of people like me, and I am happy to have some of them charing my life with me.
The way the big world is today, it doesn’t represent fairness to me. But have to say even ‘unfair’ sounds too kind a word for describing the world today. This is what is happening, what human beings are now doing on this planet is a full madness, an insane lunatic action. All the goodness -how I would describe goodness- is gone in that move. As well as trust. As well as fairness, moderation, justice, and ‘just enough’.
It looks to me as if the whole world were playing the same game, but not everyone by the same rules.
It hasn’t been comfortable to get all the new truths spinning into my head about this merciless destruction going on. Oh, how I wish I could have kept my naive truths as truths still. But nowadays it’s better, I guess, to be aware of the fact that if I buy my favourite fruits from a supermarket they might not improve my health any longer as they did before. Contrarily they might even be so full of poisonous pesticides that it’s healthier not to eat them at all. Cause even it was told that those pesticides are not allowed in Europe, they are here anyway. Just cause it was good for someone’s business.
It’s also part of living in today’s world to be aware that colours in mass production food are widely nothing but a sales gimmick. It’s possible that your strawberry just loses its colour, cause it was just an artificial coating, a carcinogenic one. But it just sells better! And make the season last forever!
It’s possible to get a ‘fresh’ green salad which keeps its colour weeks after weeks cause someone has invented a thin invisible plastic coating on it. This way the sales period increases greatly!
And who would buy a grey or beige salmon without artificial pink colourant which makes it pop from the other fish at the supermarket? Cause that’s what they said when you were a kid, that pinky salmon is so healthy for you, right? You most surely even have a picture in your mind of wild salmon jumping upstream? Yea. But the product is changed. It’s just that people’s knowledge about it is not widely updated simultaneously with the change. Therefore people are still buying what ‘is’ healthy…the pink omega-3-rich juicy wild salmon which has been caught from happily jumping in a waterfall. But what people really get is colourants, antibiotics, tasteless fish lack of nutrients, from fish which were mass-produced in a fish farm.
My stomach has dropped many times when the greediness of human beings has surprised even me, who tend to be quite pessimistic. It’s possible that you buy a bag of rice just to find out that a part of the grains actually is made of plastic. It just gives so much more profit! So easy money!
It’s possible that the delicious looking ‘European’ honey turns out to be an adulterated corn syrup from China.
Just to mention a few tiny tiny examples of this huge scam.
Back to our beautiful garden. It’s so rewarding to see new plants growing from the seeds we sow. And it feels so good to know what I eat when I eat our own garden products. I can decide what I consume. I can decide to be healthy.
But I know the greediness of the human being has infiltrated his tentacle into this area too. I have heard many people promising to themselves, that if the world gets too crazy, they would just withdraw themselves from civilization, take a piece of land with a modest house, make their own living, grow their own food, and live healthily and happily ever after far from the cruel world.
But what if one day that stops being a possibility. What if there’s no place to escape to? What if no matter how far you run, you don’t find peace? What if a fresh start is something you only were used to being able to smell? What is natural to you, remember, is all about your personal perspective. Who would care about you so much to respect your outdated vision about a beautiful world? You over someone’s money. Who do you think wins? Who says all you have learned remains the same forever, anyway?
Yes, you might have been aware that things change, and you thought you were prepared..but you never thought THIS big truth would change and turn into panic and fear. Every time you think you are safe they are already behind you. Every time you ‘make sure’, you notice you have no chance to be. This fractal evilness goes even deeper, even more mercilessly. What if trust dies out?
In the middle of all this madness, I somehow am calm. I believe that only up to a point man is able to reign by force, by destroying. After that, nature takes over. Nature always wins. It just lets a man play his stupid defiant self-harming games first. Nature is powerful over everything, therefore confident, waiting for its right move. And I will live my life by believing in that and will die believing. And it gives me the purpose to be here.
